we became i

Just me & you


I knew when I met you were special cause no ordinary love would make me feel this way

My heart misses you. My mind doesn’t. I still think of you close to frequently. They say you never really get over the love of your first love. I testify to that, at least now I do. Often I gaze into the night sky wondering how you are. Do you do the same? Dreaming makes me feel close to you. The only time I do feel close to you. Pictures don’t do me any justice. They just make me sad. The tears irritate me and I fall weak. The image of you hurts me but not the way that I imagined. The real kind of hurt. The kind of hurt I never envisioned I would fall victim to. I deserve cruelty? Don’t worry about it you use to say to me. I will be thinking of you way longer than you could ever think about me you would say. You’re my dream girl you would say. You’re the only one I love you would say. I’m not going to call you beautiful. I’m going to call you love you would say. I told him you were going to have my babies you would say. I promise you’re the only for me you would say. Just to say…maybe that’s all you meant. Just to say…maybe that’s how you wanted it. I’m waiting on you remember? You would say. When would you do? Could you do? Weak. Vulnerable. Used. Those were not your intentions I’m sure. Why I still feel like I can have you I’m not sure. Why I still believe in forever after with you. I’m not sure. Me and You could make the world jealous I would say. Me and you against the world you would say.