Soul Sista
what is deep? it's deeper than deep. so concrete can't hold it.hearts filled righteously.
Once upon a time you told me you would make me the happiest girl in the world. When I met you I saw my future. You became my future and I became yours. I prayed for you to come along for a very long time. You dreamed of meeting me for a very long time. We found each other and we were happy. No, you were ecstatic. I was beyond the point of no return. I lost myself in us. I wanted too. You were everything I ever wanted to feel, touch, taste, smell. I was your everything in general, if i am not mistaken. Your practicality, your realism, my imagination, my composure, our faith, was the condensation of perfection when young Polynesian souls are at one with each other. Yes maybe now you will believe that my declaration of love for you was just as if not stronger than your love for me. Your so young you would tell me. Your so wise I remember thinking. I never doubted anything you stood for.Yet you still tested the depths of how far I could for you. The inability to perform I believe made you question the woman you were in falling in love with. I vowed time and time again that I could be whatever it is you wanted me to be. Out of the ordinary, out of my range, out of character to be so submissive.Frivolous encounters with beings who held no significance caused friction and unnecessary confusion. It was time to let go and it was you who I highhandedly choose. I was the happiest girl in the world, once upon a time.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
we became i
Just me & you
I knew when I met you were special cause no ordinary love would make me feel this way
My heart misses you. My mind doesn’t. I still think of you close to frequently. They say you never really get over the love of your first love. I testify to that, at least now I do. Often I gaze into the night sky wondering how you are. Do you do the same? Dreaming makes me feel close to you. The only time I do feel close to you. Pictures don’t do me any justice. They just make me sad. The tears irritate me and I fall weak. The image of you hurts me but not the way that I imagined. The real kind of hurt. The kind of hurt I never envisioned I would fall victim to. I deserve cruelty? Don’t worry about it you use to say to me. I will be thinking of you way longer than you could ever think about me you would say. You’re my dream girl you would say. You’re the only one I love you would say. I’m not going to call you beautiful. I’m going to call you love you would say. I told him you were going to have my babies you would say. I promise you’re the only for me you would say. Just to say…maybe that’s all you meant. Just to say…maybe that’s how you wanted it. I’m waiting on you remember? You would say. When would you do? Could you do? Weak. Vulnerable. Used. Those were not your intentions I’m sure. Why I still feel like I can have you I’m not sure. Why I still believe in forever after with you. I’m not sure. Me and You could make the world jealous I would say. Me and you against the world you would say.
I knew when I met you were special cause no ordinary love would make me feel this way
My heart misses you. My mind doesn’t. I still think of you close to frequently. They say you never really get over the love of your first love. I testify to that, at least now I do. Often I gaze into the night sky wondering how you are. Do you do the same? Dreaming makes me feel close to you. The only time I do feel close to you. Pictures don’t do me any justice. They just make me sad. The tears irritate me and I fall weak. The image of you hurts me but not the way that I imagined. The real kind of hurt. The kind of hurt I never envisioned I would fall victim to. I deserve cruelty? Don’t worry about it you use to say to me. I will be thinking of you way longer than you could ever think about me you would say. You’re my dream girl you would say. You’re the only one I love you would say. I’m not going to call you beautiful. I’m going to call you love you would say. I told him you were going to have my babies you would say. I promise you’re the only for me you would say. Just to say…maybe that’s all you meant. Just to say…maybe that’s how you wanted it. I’m waiting on you remember? You would say. When would you do? Could you do? Weak. Vulnerable. Used. Those were not your intentions I’m sure. Why I still feel like I can have you I’m not sure. Why I still believe in forever after with you. I’m not sure. Me and You could make the world jealous I would say. Me and you against the world you would say.
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